Grieving after mum's passing

During the Funeral Service, Elliot, my eldest son having a last farewell with grandma, Daryl be the last one to say Good Bye to her.

Nothing could prepare us for eventual separation from death
No matter how sick, how ill, how demanding taking care of the sick
We would rather have our loved ones with us for another day, another hour
Not everyday on earth is a day to celebrate
As our loved ones become sick and dying bit by bit
How does one prepare to die ?

No one tells us that grieving is more than crying
The heart torn apart in the midst of pain

The mind racing to search for treasured memories

We ache in thoughts we had not done enough

Ignorance, negligence, we should have done more

How to make peace over this ? 

Death forces us to bide good bye

A cruel reality that we shall meet no more

When tomorrow comes, we can't greet Good Morning

When night falls, we can't say Good Night

We start to miss what we take for granted

How do we bide permanent farewell ?

Every little thing reminds us of our good times

We call to mind what have been said

Such wisdom, so candid, so unforgettable

Death makes all these into memories

Rainbows, rains and darkness make our memory more intense

How can we ever forget ? 

At the end of sobbing
At the end of crying
With every tear drops

With every tissue

Every grief is unique
Special to the person we miss